The healing phase is like watching paint dry.
Healing has been the hardest topic to write about. This “healing” phase is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Why? Because it requires me to let go of control and stay still. And, if I do not follow the healing directions… I will not be able to have a prosthetic fitting or walk the beaches with my husband. Healing from the amputation, was a walk in the park compared to the healing with a DVT* (Deep Vein Thrombosis). Healing is a physical AND mental journey.
*blood clot in the large vein, the full length of my “good” leg and into my groin
My healing homework is to move but not move.
Yes those are the directions from my health professionals.
I need to move to help break down my DVT (blood clot) so that my body can absorb it organically. Moving (doing my physio) also helps the healing for my amputated leg. I am loosing muscle fast but I know when this is all done I will be back in the gym rebuilding my dreams of running and hiking the trails in Hawaii.
AND I need to NOT move… My DVT leg begins to swell and turn dark red quickly because of my blood clot, so I must get it horizontal. My blood clot leg is only using the small veins to send and receive blood from the heart, because the large vein has the blood clot. So it is a fine balance of knowing how much to move and when to go horizontal.
The mental healing is also challenging. I am stuck in one room with a bed, tv, lap top, commode and a walker. Also a yoga matt. I can walk (hop as I only have one leg) about 20 feet before I must put my leg up, which is part of my daily physio. I am going stir crazy/shack wacky from being physically limited. I am someone who normally does not like to stay still.
This immobility has been the most humbling thing I have ever gone through. Have you ever needed someone to clean out your commode? The first time my girlfriend insisted on doing my commode I cried, I felt broke. That was the lowest and strongest day of my healing. I thought (after the day passed) how THANKFUL I was to have a such a friend who would do that for me.
I challenge myself every day with what I CAN DO. I CAN use my wheelchair to get around with both legs up on an extention board. I CAN do the dishes from my wheelchair. I CAN wipe the table down. And, with the help of my grabber I CAN pick up items on the floor. I CAN!
If I can spend the day finding things I CAN do what CAN you do today?